It’s easy for you to read my story with my son and to think that after that pivotal night, our trials were over. That is far from the truth. It was a long road of some good days and some tough ones. But here’s the thing, when I asked, God equipped me to raise my son. It did not happen over night. It went from “Dear God, help me!” to real and genuine, urgent requests for wisdom from the heart of a mom who loved her son.
The more I consistently prayed for wisdom, the more He unleashed it on me, whether it was through book reading, internet research, talks with other people with similar experience–whatever the source–He began to show me what was best for my son.
I’ll never forget the conference I went to a few weeks after my revelation. My husband went with me for the first time and guess what kind of speaker was there for both of us to hear? The woman’s specialty was learning disabilites. Within the first few minutes of her talk, I was literally weeping because she was describing my son. I thought for sure she’d been looking in the windows of my house! Her words were the salve I needed and the wisdom I needed to continue to help my son toward success in school.
Just this morning, I read this verse. It’s what got me started thinking this direction:
2 Peter 1:3
“By his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life. We have received all of this by coming to know him, the one who called us to himself by means of his marvelous glory and excellence.”
You can see what stuck out to me. It got me started thinking about 2 Timothy 3:17 and Hebrews 13:21.
“so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.”
“May the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.”
Maybe these are not in context for motherhood, but they do make a point…God will equip you to do your life. In the book of James it tells us to pray for wisdom and it will be given to you. I know I’ve read that before, shot up a “give me wisdom” prayer and wondered why it didn’t come. Maybe that works sometimes, but I think what God wants for us as mothers is to press on–to continue in our asking for wisdom and he’ll place us in a situation that we are so beyond ourself that we can’t doubt that it was HIS wisdom, not ours.
I know I’m not alone in my struggles so I encourage you that if you are pulling out your hair over your child (or maybe all of them) to begin to boldly and persistently approach the throne of God, asking for Him to give you wisdom in how to raise His child. I promise He’ll deliver. It may not be today and it may not be months from now, but He will deliver in His perfect timing.
In the meantime, I will meditate on my own words and life lessons by continuing to pray that God will give me the wisdom to as to how to love Daughter of Purpose just as she is. I absolutely love her, but she’s very different from me and I often find myself standing there staring at her antics and wondering what planet she is from. She’s very melodramatic and thinks that life is one big show that she is the sole performer. I’ll share that story later…
Thank you so much for sharing!! God is using you!